Monday, December 30, 2013

~*~ El Salvador ~*~



We are HERE! 



We flew into El Salvador on Christmas day. 
It didn't didn't seem like Christmas at all really... 
Hot weather, green grass and ocean air... 
defiantly not like any Christmas we have had before! 





After arriving at the airport we made it through all the paperwork, then we loaded up a van and settled in for the 2+ hour ride ahead. 

The sights are so different...

The bugs are few... 
The temperature is perfect... 
The oranges are plentiful...
The poverty is heartbreaking....
The way of live is casual and leisurely... 
The people are friendly... 
 The Roads are narrow... 
Everything is SO GREEN... 
The Spaghetti is Spicy.. 
The Sugar Cane is at least 13 foot tall...
The food is good, (but I am really starting to miss my kitchen)... 

Here are a few pics from the adventures we have had over the past few days. If you would like to see more, please Click here




Enjoy!! 






Bananas still on the stem...




A woman cooking in her kitchen... 




The Kitchen sink...




A delicious plate of food... 




A ginormous tree that was SO beautiful. 





The family that is being BLESSED by God's miracles... 




A crab that is found under the rocks of the main land... they say it tastes REALLY GOOD... gonna have to take their word on this one... 




A beautiful Waterfall. 



Ryka sleeping in a hammock. 




A wonderful friend that ate a red jolly rancher... I think it affected her purse, hair and tongue!! 





A step back in time. 




My beautiful little princess. 




Throughly enjoying some FRESH coconuts! 






After we drank all the juice out of the coconuts, the guy with the machete split the coconut for us so we could scrape the flesh right out and eat it too. SO YUMMY! 







A pineapple BUSH... Who knew?!? 




The spectacular View




Farming on the side of a VERY steep hill... I honestly don't know how they do it!! 



A friendly Cow... Horns are a good thing in this country!?! 




The collection of things found on our hike... Left to right: coconut, yellow flowers, pink flowers, red flowers, more flowers, small orange and a bigger (green) orange... 




An orange tree loaded with GREEN oranges! 




Casey and Denalli playing in the ocean...




Footprints in the sand...



 the cutest baby EVER... 




 more of the Cutest Baby EVER... 




Denalli and Ryka feeling a wave for the first time... 




Casey splashing in the ocean...




Denalli quickly wrote her name in the sand before the waves could wash it away.. 




AMEN! 




My wonderful man! 




Denalli stuck in the mud! 





 Casey and Ryka. 




Mommie and Ryka.




Denalli and Ryka playing in the pool at the ocean... the pool water was easier on their eyes compared to the salty ocean water... 




Splashing away!




Mom and babies chillaxin on the beach... 




 Perfect moment... 




Casey and his main squeeze... 




Enjoying the waves and water...





the waves...




Here they come! 




Looking out across the waves...




a sea creature coming out of its shell! 




My babe, all tuckered out... 




LOVE the hammocks! We are gonna be bringing one home! 




A beautiful sunset for a beautiful day... 


God is hard at work. 
We are experiencing things on all different levels that we have never experienced before. 
We feel Him here. 
We KNOW He is here. 
We see Him at work! 

Thank you for your continued prayers and support! 

Stay tuned for the next "wave" of pictures and blessings!


*HUGS*
~ One BLESSED mommie~ 


Saturday, December 21, 2013

48 Hours and Counting down....

A little over 48 hours to be together as a family...

48 hours to soak up all the 
hugs,
 kisses,
 giggles,
smiles,
 tears, 
snuggles,
love,
and moments
 of my three precious children that will be left behind.....

The suitcases are filling up... 

Our hearts are bursting with tons of emotions... 

The reality of the ENORMOUS journey we are about to embark on, is staring us in the face... 


Accepting the call to go to El Salvador, booking the air line tickets, getting passports in the mail, setting dates, arranging schedules, and organizing life details has all been like a dream.... 

Now that the suitcases are on the bed, clothes are being sorted out, folded and carefully packed... the reality of this trip is slowly seeping into my soul....

My eyes seem to fill up with tears at the thought of not holding my children for such an extended period of time.... 


This is the time of year families are supposed to gather close together... 

But in our case, we will be spread father apart than we ever been...


We will leave early Christmas Eve morning and head to the air-port, where we will say good-bye to our three middle children. 

My-self, Denalli and Ryka will be separated from Grayett, DallieJo and Talla Kaye for 22 days.... 

Daddy will be separated from them for 13 days... 

They will be in the good care of family and friends. 

I pray that they understand... 

I pray they do not get anxious or home sick... 

I pray they have the comfort and love they need to be sustained throughout this separation..... 


After our bitter sweet goodbye, we will fly from Rapid City to Denver, then onto Houstan, Tx, where we will be grounded for 9 hours, then we will fly into San Salvador on Christmas day. 

Once we get to San Salvador, we will meet up with a relative of the family we are traveling with, and he will take us onto our hotel. 

I am praying for peace and comfort as we step into a world that none of us have ever experienced before....

The day after Christmas we will meet up with our "family" and head to the church, to begin crying out to God... 


Naturally, I have had several questions about this Journey ahead of us, so I will try and go over a few more details: 


Q:  Money: are we paying to have our daughters prayed over, or is there any money involved in taking them to the church?

A:  
NO. Please understand that the church we are taking them to is of Godly-Christian based beliefs. It is a church where people are being healed by the word of God. A church where an anointed individual lays hands on people and prays over them. A church where an offering in accepted, but not required in any shape or form. (Think of traveling to a different town and attending a new church. You are not expected to give any money, but if you feel led to do so as the offering plate passes by- go ahead and give. ) 
To a church where miracles and healing are an everyday event. A church that prays over people 6 out of 7 days of the week- year around. They seek God with ALL they have. They do not solicit for money. They do not have any sort of web-site or advertisement of any sort. The only reason we know of this church, is due to a family that God brought into our lives a few years ago. 

It is a church that calls on Gods healing and EXPECTS it. 

(The only "money" involved is normal expenses like- plane tickets, hotel fees, rental car, food, traveling expenses, ect. )



Q: How can I/We pray?

A:  Ultimately we are going to seek God's healing for Denalli and Ryka. We are going and EXPECTING God's healing hand to work within their bodies.... 
Pray that God is Glorified in all things. 
 Pray He ultimately heals Denalli and Ryka.
Pray that our faith remains strong. 
Pray God reveals Himself. 
Pray for safety. 



Q: Where will you be staying?

A: We will be staying in a "nice hotel" in the city of Auhuachapan. I am told that the word "nice" means that the hotel has guards on the outside protecting it.... This is where the Prayers for safety come in!! :) 



Q: Is this a missions trip?

A: Well, yes and no. Honestly we probably would have gotten a better response/more support if we would have called it a missions trip... (right now, the general population just thinks we are plain crazy!)  But this is not a typical "missions trip"..... it is more. We are going to El Salvador to meet God where He is and stand on His truths of healing and restoration. We are on a personal mission to seek healing for our daughters. It is indeed a "missions trip" for us. We taking
 clothes for the El Salvadorian people, that have been rounded from our community.  The majority of us will be there for almost 3 weeks, and we will do whatever we can to "shine our light" wherever we go....




Q: Will you have access to internet/phone, ect? 

A: YES!! We will have internet in our hotel lobby, so please send your questions/thoughts/comments if you have any! We will more than likely have a phone also... I have some things set up, but will have to wait and see if they work when we get there...



Q: Why in the world are you going to El Salvador?

A: This is a loaded question... 
Point blank: we are going to seek God's healing.
 He has called us to go there and ultimately made a way for us to be there. (getting my husband to leave the country is a miracle in its-self, let alone everything else that has transpired up to this point!) We are going to El Salvador, because we know God is working there and healing there. We fully understand He could heal our daughters here within the states, but basically- WHY NOT go where HE is at? In the bible, when the Lord preformed "miracles", there were a few instances that the people were healed on the spot. When most of the miracles happened- the people seeking them had to "take action"- for example: Jesus spit into the dirt, made some mud, rubbed it on the blind mans' eyes, then told the blind man to go wash the mud off. After the mud was washed off, the blind man could see! Action. Something physically was done. Jesus smeared mud on a blind man's face, had the blind man rinse it off, and this caused him to see! (Is that weird at all to you?) There was also time and waiting involved in some of the miracles. Some of the miracles Jesus preformed instantaneously, but others He waited for time to pass to bring "more glory to God". When he raised Lazarus from the dead, 4 days had passed since Lazarus died. After Lazarus was good and dead, Jesus prayed and told him to come out of the tomb. Lazarus came out with his body wrapped in the burial cloth. Why did he wait? To bring "more glory to God". John 11:1-6


I fully understand that Jesus could miraculously heal my daughters here. I also understand that it could take time to see His work... 

But once again: He is healing there, has called us to go, so WE GO! 

Psalm 37:4
Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart. 

 God is God, and I am me... 
I will not try to figure out anything beyond that! 

Well, if you have ANY questions/thoughts/comments: PLEASE ASK!! Although, I may not have all the answers... I will tell you what I know! 


In ending, I wanted to offer you a chance at some 
El Salvadorian Coffee! We have the opportunity to bring it back and share it with you! 
The coffee available is AMAZING!

Think premium coffee grown on the mountains of El Salvador, picked this month which is out drying in the sun as I type. When we go down this month it will be roasted over an open fire and brought back to your waiting coffee mugs.- This coffee is TO DIE FOR!! It is smooth and sweet. I can drink it without ANY creamer OR sugar- which should SPEAK VOLUMES!!! 

Please comment or shoot me an e-mail if you are interested: 

Coffee is $12/lb or $50/5lbs

Cacao Beans are also available: $15/lb- 
(you can choose raw or roasted)

Ps. I checked other "premium" coffee prices in the area and found that most everything was higher priced than the coffee I will bring back... Just saying- Extremely good and fresh coffee for a good price!! ;) Also- not gonna lie: sales of the coffee are helping fund this journey! :) 


Thanks for reading my thoughts! 

Thanks for your support!

~THANKS FOR YOUR PRAYERS~ 


Romans 15:13



I'll talk to ya in when we are in warmer weather!!
~One BLESSED mommie 





Monday, December 2, 2013

~21 Days and Counting~

The adventure of a life time will be here before we know it... 

My brain has been racing with all the stuff to do, to get done, to get signed, to pack, to get together, to purchase, to pack some more,  to plan.... 21 days and counting! 




 I will get on an airplane in 21 days and be away from my children for the following 21 days (or longer)... 


I will have:

21 days left to pour out my love, on my 3 middle babies... 

21 days to pray for un-shaking peace... 

21 days to praise the Lord for this healing journey... 

21 days to share with the world that God is in control- no matter the outcome. 

21 days to snuggle and soak up all the kisses, hugs and love from my children that will be left behind....

21 days to love, live, and celebrate life as a family! 



After these 21 days fly by, 
The following 21 days will be just as full. 

They will be full of blessings, healing and Gods Grace...  

Full of un-told miracles.. 

Full of adventure... 





I was in wal-mart yesterday, figuring out my ring size, and looking for a simple band to wear when we travel. I told the lady behind the counter I was going to travel abroad, and where we were going. Her face brightened up, and she instantly asked if we were going on a missions trip... 

"huh... I never thought out it that way," I said. I then explained we were going to take our daughters down and have them prayed over for healing. She said, "Oh, well then, It is going to be a missions trip for your family and your community".


Yes indeed. 


We are on a incredible mission to seek Gods Grace and Healing. 

Our mission is to be faithful to God's calling in our lives...

Our mission is to proclaim the Glory of God to those around us... 

Our mission is to glorify Him in all we do... 

Our mission is to be a light in a world of darkness....




Our mission comes with un-told feelings and emotions that can not be expressed in words. 

It comes with a multitude of thanks and forever gratefulness for the prayers and support that has been given. 

It comes with an un-spoken calmness that re-assures us; this is right where we are destined to be. 



Thank-you for following our journey and our mission in Christ.










Stay tuned for the next update about: the vehicle that will safely transport our family!  :) 


 









Friday, November 22, 2013

A leap of Faith

My heart is overflowing, and my mind is exploding... 
I sit here in the vastness of our creator, and I am in complete awe that he choose me for this journey in life.
 Me? Why me?


 I ponder this often- not for any negative reasons or impulses you might be quick to think of,
 but questioning "WHY ME", because of the vast blessings and life changes He has sent my way.
"Why do I deserve to have this abundant, blessing overflowing life?" 
"Why am I the one that gets to see God's hand work in and around my life, day in and day out, time and time again?"
I don't deserve it. I know I don't deserve to be where I am today...  but by God's AMAZING grace- 


I am here. 
I am alive. 
and by nothing but His saving grace- 
I have a Christ Filled Journey ahead....



What has set me off this time you may wonder?!? 


Well, I have to be honest with you... at first- I did not want to tell anyone... I wanted to go- see God's hand work, then come back home, proclaim God's Glory, and tell everyone how wonderful He was... 
Yeah- pathetic... I know...  
But wouldn't that be simpler?
 Wouldn't it be easy just to tell everyone about the positive results, and not have to face the negative relm, if there is any?
 Isn't it easier to go do something, then tell others about it after you return- 
just incase it does not work out?


 Have you ever experienced this?!? 


BUT- I simply can not do that. I can not keep this to my-self.

 I have to tell..
 I have to share...
God is tugging at my heart strings, telling me to proclaim His good works.
 He is leading me to share this journey with everyone. 
It is scary. Very scary....
I am laying my heart out on the line. I am opening up and sharing with you a very personal leap of faith.... 
Rejection, I do not like rejection-
but I embrace the comfort in knowing this journey is from God.
He knows. 
These next few months are all but a glimmer of sunlight in His eyes. 
He KNOWS- 
He is the Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. 

SO WHAT IS IT?!?  

A leap of faith. 


A long airplane ride. 
A stand in Christ. 
A tip to a foreign country. 
A journey to a land far away.  
An adventure that will bring healing and health to my daughters, and to my family.  

IT IS: 

A trip to El Salvador.


Yes- El Salvador. 
as in the country SOUTH of Mexico. 
WHY?
Because God is calling us there....
He has opened the opportunity for us to accompany friends that are natives of the country, to seek healing for our daughters. 
We have known about this for the past few years. 
The opportunity has always been there, 
but we have NEVER felt a calling/ peace to act upon it. 
UNTIL recently....
We have feverently prayed for peace... 
Prayed for clear direction... 
We have prayed God would provide a way for us to go... 
and we now are on our way.



Do I understand?


NO! 


Can I explain everything? 


NO! 


In fact, 

I probably sound like a crazy person... 

Who WANTS to leave 3 children behind for 2+ weeks? 

Who WANTS to go to a country that is on the verge of another civil war?
Who WANTS to accept the financial ramifications of flying across the country? 

Ummm... Not me! - I don't want any of that...
BUT- I do want to be obedient to God's calling...
I yearn to be a ship at sea- guided by his wind and waves... 


I want to see the goodness He has in store for my family....
So therefore- 
WE GO- 

It will be the 4 of us: Casey, Denalli, Ryka and I. 
We will fly out on Christmas day. 
Casey will fly back after 1 week or so. 
Natosha, Denalli and Ryka will stay in El Salvador until January 11th.
Then, Natosha will fly back into SLC with Denalli and Ryka.
January 13th- Ryka will have her Trial Study Check up in SLC.  
then POSSIBLY- Denalli will start her Drug Trial Study again- which could potentially take another 2+ weeks in SLC.... (by the way- the FDA gave the "green light" go ahead on the ISIS Drug... PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!! Now we have to wait for a few more approvals of the study, then we will be notified when Denalli can be re-injected with the drug. Thank you JESUS~) 
THEN WE WILL COME HOME.... 
The mama and the 2 girls could potentially be gone anywhere from 3 weeks to over 1 month... 

MY, OH MY........

Am I ready for this?!? 

NO!

 - Not yet at least. 

I do have peace... please don't get me wrong. 
I know in my heart, this is the journey we are ment to travel.....
but my head and my heart are fighting once again... 




I don't know how to get past the ache that I feel, when I think about leaving my kids. 
Especially when I think about leaving them for such an extended period of time...
I pray they will understand... 
I pray they will not grow bitter... 
I pray God's Grace will surround them....

I pray. 

I am thankful. 


I am blessed beyond measure... 






-Jesus Calling for Kids by Sarah Young- 
"Think of your life as an adventure, with Me as your Guide and Companion. Don't worry about where our path will lead tomorrow - just live in the adventure of today. Keep your mind on staying close to Me." 











Sunday, October 27, 2013

Reality is setting in...

Trying to put into words the emotions and thoughts that run through my mind and body, is like trying to capture the ocean in a bottle. I have so much I want to express, but it seems like I can't  get the words to come in the right way, so bear with me....


Fact is: Ryka has SMA- yes we know this, but now I am SEEING this in day to day activities...


I have again learned first hand- that knowing and seeing- are two completely different things.




I knew this day would come. I knew it was going to be hard. But, I was not prepared for the emotions and feelings it has re-created and brought back to life.




Seeing my little girl struggle at 9 months old is gut wrenching. Talking with a friends about their children that are 1-2 months younger than Ryka, is heart wrenching. I have to turn away with tears in my eyes when they tell me that their baby was crawling at 6 months and now their babies are all over the place and getting into things. My baby - at 9 months old-  struggles to reach forward, grab a toy and sit back up. It is all still so raw right now. It's like having the diagnosis all over again. When the tears come, it's not that I am un-happy for other babies, quite opposite really- I am thrilled their babies are able to do all the normal things, it's just that I ache to see my baby do the same. And then the ache in my heart is intensified when I realize yet again- her life with SMA will not allow that. It will not allow her to freely move- get into things, and explore her environment. Oh, it is so-so hard.

Before Denalli was diagnosed, the Dr. told me over and over that she was a "lazy baby". I wanted to scream in his face and tell him she was anything BUT a lazy baby. The determination and frustration in her eyes spoke volumes to me. She wanted to go, she wanted to move, to stand, to crawl, to get across the room-but she simply couldn't.... Now-5 years later- I see that same determination and frustration in Ryka's eyes. And let me tell you- it was hard to see the first time, but to see it again.... I have no words, just the ache in my heart. 

October 24th was D-day for Denalli. I always wondered what 5 years with SMA would look like. Five years of living and thriving with SMA. Pretty sure, my picture of 5 years down the road of "then", is nothing of what "now" is like. I hoped and prayed for a healthy 6 yr old little girl, and I have that. Casey and I prayed God would bless us with more children free from SMA-we have three beautiful, amazing, healthy kids, with out SMA! Then our hearts were set on adoption. We felt God had a big adventure ahead of us. We started getting the house ready, and setting dates to begin the adoption process... Then we quickly learned that once again- God had different plans for our lives. His big adventure for us, was not adoption at this time, but a blessing by the name of Ryka Kathleen. 

Ryka is a HUGE blessing in our lives. When she is with me- she is one of the most happiest babies in the world. Her big, big smile lights up every room we walk into. My mind knows everything will be okay, but my heart just needs to catch up. And it will... I know it will. There will be a day, when I can accept this journey I have ahead of me- without a tear in my eye... but not today. 



I will smile because of the beautiful life that has been given to us. 





 I will cherish the moments- like the one pictured of her just waking up from her nap and coming into the light- showing off her "squinty face". 





I will hold onto the memories of seeing this beautiful little smile every time she wakes up from a nap. 





 The determination and strength in her big blue eyes will keep me focused and fighting for the things that she needs. 



And my dearest Denalli will help me fight for her and pave the way to a better life and future for both of them. 



We will NEVER GIVE UP. 

An evening in the saddle- (An older post that never got published...)

How blessed we are to live the life we do! Here are some fun pics of this summer when we were able to saddle up the horses and go out for a family ride. Sorry for the delay in posting this... Hope you enjoy seeing pics of green grass and sunny days! :) 


 Denalli, her baby, and Casey on "chris". Chris is a colt that Casey trained last winter... she turned out to be such a jem! At the end of the ride, Denalli informed us that her baby "liked it very much!!". 




Here I am with Denalli and our trusty old steed- Cisco. The wind was blowing, the grass was green, and it smelled heavenly!
 Fun fact: This wonderful horse carried me to the wedding alter! (~love him so very much~)  




 Snickers brings nothing but smiles and giggles to the little cowboy and cowgirl. Our friends gave us Snickers last summer, and the kids enjoyed her SO SO much! She was especially good for Denalli. Snickers' stride was shorter than a big horse, and Denalli was able to hold on better and ride with confidence. But, unfortunately; Snickers passed away- due to the winter storm "atlas" that came at the beginning of October. Our hearts are sad for the loss of such a good little pony... 


 My little pebbles always has smiles for the camera. She really enjoys her saddle time and can't wait to take off on her own. I can though... boy how the days fly by! It seems like yesterday it only took 2 horses to go on a "family ride"... Now we are all doubled up or tripled up when it comes to a "family ride"! Casey just got done training 2 colts this last winter (Chris being one of them), but he had better keep going and get another couple more a-goin' to satisfy the little cowboy and cowgirls coming up!!



 Such fun times! Thank-you Lord for the life that we are able to live! 


Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Rykas Giggles- Laughing away SMA

Hello! Lots to say and share, but not enough time to get it all in. So for now, enjoy my happy little baby that is full of joy-giggles-and sweetness!  






SHARE the video- Lets laugh away SMA- Help CURE SMA and keep the Giggles Coming!